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HELLO.im JAMIE!
i study in
24december'93
i ♥ being with people who make me smile.
being alone.
i know im quite lag.
but then today,
i really really felt that i was alone.
not physically,
(cuz i had tez to accompany me and vice versa)
but like emotionally.
i never felt this way before..
back then,
i always felt tha no matter what happens,
there's someone that could read my mind,
and guide me along.
there was always something for me to look forward to.
but now,
its different.
i think i've got bad moodswings.
sometimes,
i just feel like crying.
but then,
whats the point of crying when you dont feel better at the end?
it just makes your eyes smaller.
whenever i said that i enjoyed myself in singapore,
i really did.
i could just let my hair down and do crazy,whacky stuff.
but here,
its different.
so many things going through my mind at any one time.
about today,
yes,i enjoyed myself.
but no,i didnt enjoy it.
besides the fact that im burnt,
its just the wrong company.
not all though,
just some.
well,
my life would be better without some people,wouldnt it?
im confused.
i miss RSLR.
why cant things go back to then.
why didnt i treasure those times?
WHY?!
i feel so pissed at myself at times.
im angry,high and sad at the same time.
but i can never tell people here why i feel this way.
besides the fact that we arent that close..
i dont even know it myself.
hmm,
if only i could read my own mind.
once bitten,twice shy.seriously.thats why i dont want history to repeat itself again.once,is enough.more than enough.probably a good thing that i jumped out of it early.now is not the time to be get emotional and distracted.
but then today,
i really really felt that i was alone.
not physically,
(cuz i had tez to accompany me and vice versa)
but like emotionally.
i never felt this way before..
back then,
i always felt tha no matter what happens,
there's someone that could read my mind,
and guide me along.
there was always something for me to look forward to.
but now,
its different.
i think i've got bad moodswings.
sometimes,
i just feel like crying.
but then,
whats the point of crying when you dont feel better at the end?
it just makes your eyes smaller.
whenever i said that i enjoyed myself in singapore,
i really did.
i could just let my hair down and do crazy,whacky stuff.
but here,
its different.
so many things going through my mind at any one time.
about today,
yes,i enjoyed myself.
but no,i didnt enjoy it.
besides the fact that im burnt,
its just the wrong company.
not all though,
just some.
well,
my life would be better without some people,wouldnt it?
im confused.
i miss RSLR.
why cant things go back to then.
why didnt i treasure those times?
WHY?!
i feel so pissed at myself at times.
im angry,high and sad at the same time.
but i can never tell people here why i feel this way.
besides the fact that we arent that close..
i dont even know it myself.
hmm,
if only i could read my own mind.
once bitten,twice shy.seriously.thats why i dont want history to repeat itself again.once,is enough.more than enough.probably a good thing that i jumped out of it early.now is not the time to be get emotional and distracted.
Monday, March 1, 2010 - 9:44 PM